This journal is friends only... comment to be added! I love new LJ friends, provided we have something in common, and I promise I don't bite. If you're looking for my fics, you should check out taskefic, though I post freewriting here publicly sometimes.

Check out my userinfo if you want to know more about me! I mostly update about real life, with occasional fandom talk. I've been really busy with school and work lately, so I haven't been updating as much as I should, but I always read my flist!

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I was trying to write post-5.02 Sam/Dean/Castiel angst, but this piece of pointless gen happened instead... I don't know. (Unedited, and I missed the first 15 minutes of the episode...)

( Dean+Castiel coda to 5.02. )

...Why is LJ being taken over by pro-anas?

Yeah, I'd probably end up eating less since I'd be spending the whole day sleeping and feeling miserable; I skipped dinner a few nights ago (from being legitimately full) and felt so weak I blacked out for a few seconds and went to sleep four hours early. (I'm not really sure what that was about, but I'm never doing that again.) I'd be so pissed at that genie... I need my calories for energy, kthx.

Otherwise it wouldn't, though, and I feel really sad for anyone who answers this differently. It won't kill you to eat what you want regardless of the calories. ♥

Sorry I haven't been online in ages! I'm home for the weekend (or at least tomorrow) right now, so I should be around. :3

...Um. Am I the only person who thinks this is a massively inappropriate question? You don't lose weight by fasting or cleansing (even if it looks like you have, it's probably only water weight that you'll gain back again right away, plus not eating slows your metabolism like crazy), and they're dangerous and far from healthy.

I've fasted for weeks on end as part of my eating disorder, and even if I become morbidly obese I never want to do it again because it's torture, and even in the form of anorexia, it doesn't work. I'm not an expert on weight loss, or anything, but it seems much more sensible to just eat healthy and exercise.

I hate our society sometimes.

Also, this comic about fasting is pretty awesome (and illustrates why you should never do it).


(Real entry later, after I finish cleaning my room! Probably on the same subject, since I've hit a milestone recovery-wise, but I promise to talk about something else soon. :3)

Freewriting! Sam/Dean, Sam/Jess. PG. Set during the pilot; no spoilers. (I know I got some details wrong, sorry!)

( That first day they set out after Dad, Sam’s balancing his textbook on his knees and trying to read as the Impala bumps down the rough Jericho roads. )

Twilight freewriting! Edward/Bella, Edward-centric. I found this in my Women In History notebook and decided to type it up... I think I wrote this right after I finished Twilight. Mostly unedited.

( Bella, that night, she dreams about him, breathing his name so softly he almost thinks he’s imagined it. )

I know I need to stop posting memes instead of actual entries, but there’s honestly nothing going on in my life. ;_; I turned in my Shakespeare project, but I’ll probably have to redo some of my essays...

All I’m really doing is writing Fight Club fic, but I keep losing inspiration halfway through. So I’m gonna do the WIP meme! Stolen from half of the flist.

When you see this, post a little weensy excerpt from as many random works-in-progress as you can find lying around. Who knows? Maybe inspiration will burst forth and do something, um, inspiration-y.

( This is all Fight Club fic. Spoilers! NSFW. )


Otherwise, I’ve been reading a lot. 8D I’m borrowing Animorphs from Kaylin... I forgot how much I loved that series. ♥ And I finally read Another Note, which was amazing, and I’m also getting kind of addicted to Palahniuk. I just read Diary, which was all kinds of love.

....I told you my life was really boring. D:

I'm gonna start posting freewriting here, again! I wrote this last week sometime, but just typed it up today. This doesn’t really have a point... and I know Tyler is acting really out-of-character, sorry.

Also, I need to start crediting my bonds (I'll talk about this later, but I think we go blendy a lot when I write), so thanks for your help, not_a_consumer. :D And I just read Invisible Monsters, so that’s where a lot of this is coming from. D:

Anyway. Fight Club, PG/PG-13ish, gen. Post-book/post-movie.

( Heaven isn’t anything like you expect. )

So a lot of times I'll wake up in the middle of the night really wanting to write fic. Except normally I'm half-asleep and too lazy to actually get paper or anything, so the fic just gets written in my head, and then dies forever.

Last night, I wrote it down. :D

Title: Spectrum
Fandom: Death Note
Pairing: Near/L
Warnings: Chapter 58 spoilers. Extremely, extremely unedited and incoherent! Seriously. I might edit this lots and do something with it later? (I switched this around and two "understands" in a row is really, really bugging me. I'm sorry. ;_;)

( L, they tell him, is perfection. )

I know a lot of people on my flist have been confused about my revelation about being multiple, a soulbonder, and fictionkin; they're not exactly the most well-understood phenomena out there. So I'm writing this post to explain what my personal experience is like... I completely respect that it's your personal choice whether or not to believe me, and I don't expect anyone to, but please understand that this is intensely important to me!

( More of an explanation... )

This is of the "I have to leave for school really soon" sort again. (If I'm not gonna write any normal fics, I should at least pay more attention to these... XDD; Maybe next time.) Halfway through writing this, I realized it was pretty much the same thing I just wrote a few days ago. x_x; So I kept it short. And it could use a better ending.

Also, I guess the only person Light could be saying anything to is Misa, so, er, yeah. I didn't think about this very much.

( L/Light. Chapter 58 spoilers. )

I didn't feel like writing, so I tried anyway, and predictably it turned out pretty awful. I had to cut it short, even. (Also I've got an insane migraine, so ignore any weird errors. ^^;)

I wanted to listen to "Passive" by A Perfect Circle while writing this, but I'm on the wrong computer so I ended up with "Move It Like This" by Baha Men, which isn't quite the same.

( Freewriting. Death Note chapter 58 spoilers likewhoa. Gen. )

I did one of those quick little fics where I just write down whatever comes into my head, again. ^^ Also, a few days ago I was all public, but now I'm all filtered. I'll probably make these all friends only in a few days, too, though.

( Light/Misa, PG-13, amnesia arc. Confusing run-on sentences, unedited. )

...That was really clichéd. But anyway. Sorry if there are any mistakes; it's unedited and everything. ^^; And it's time for Shakespeare now, so bye.

I just let myself write, and this is what happened.

Onesided L/Light, PG, me rambling, overuse of parentheses. I made L really... gentle and young. I'm not used to him being 25. XD; Sorry. (Also, yeah, this is about bond!L... he was feeling really lonely, so I had to write about it. ^^;)

Also, writing in first person is weird. It makes me feel like I'm writing self-insert. >< If I ever edit this to the point that it's postable, I'll figure out a different way to do that section.

( L's first memory is of stars. )

( Cut so people who don't like DN won't have to read it. No spoilers. )

EDIT2: So that thing that happened in chapter 58 happened on November 5, 2005... so I wanted to see what I was doing on that day (or close to it) and... I had a dream about JK Rowling/Terry Pratchett, and was talking about transvestite vampires. XD Yeah.

EDIT3: Also, if you're here because you actually want to know L's name, it's ( ... )

...Yeah, I just realized this is one of the first hits on Google for "L's real name." *facepalm* Sorry for not telling you guys sooner! XD;

Okay, so I can't put this in the fic journal because it's unfinished. But I also can't save it to my computer because it'll get deleted, and I can't make it private because I may have to use computers that won't let me log in.

Think of it as a rough draft or something. I'm going to have to edit this in anonymous comments or something. XD;

EDIT: Okay, I'm working on it a little bit. If you read now, it may not make so much sense.

Working Title: Together
Fandom: Death Note
Pairing: L/Light, but it's not quite there yet.
Rating: PG
Spoilers: Yes. Up to somewhere around 56, I think.
Warnings: Unedited and unfinished, whut.

( Truthfully, it started while he was locked up, on the third week of captivity. )

Starting 03/07/06, this is now my personal journal only. All of my fics are moving over to taskefic, and that's where I'll always post fics from now on.

So go ahead and friend and defriend however you want. ^^ The whole point of this is so I won't be spamming anyone, so if you don't want to see the fics don't friend taskefic, and if you don't want to see my real life, defriend taskemus, and everything will be wonderful.

Er, you might want to wait a couple days if you're going to friend the fic-journal, though, since I've just finished uploading all of my fics there, and that would spam your friends page LIKEWHOA.

Everything over there will be unlocked, too, and everything here will be locked, unless it's something like this.

I'll get around to moving up the Friends Only banner sometime soon, too, but first I'm going to make sure I've really got all of my fics over there, and before that there's a special on migraines on TV and I'm going to go watch that.

...And I know the layout sucks, I'm going to make it exciting over spring break, hopefully.

Well, I tried to write a prequel to "Everything, and", because I wanted to see if I could define what I'm trying to define by it's actually being there, not by the lack of it. But I think I failed... this makes me really dizzy and isn't exactly coherent, and I don't like it half as much as the other one.

I guess that proves my point. Fluff is harder to write than angst.

Title: EdandAl
Fandom: Fullmetal Alchemist
Pairing: Gen, I guess. But it's Elricest later on, so...
Rating: PG
Notes: Prequel to Everything, and. The size is an element of the fic, but if it's too small to read please tell me...

( Heat on his skin, a thunderous, comforting clicking and cackling, shadows and light dancing across the ground and sky, and Edward Elric has the courage to step ahead without looking back, since he's alone now, they're alone )